how much did she *REALLY* help me (if you think about it)?

i got my nails done and while i was getting them done, some mobile telephone company called me to do a phone interview before my in-person interview with them tomorrow. i had to have the interview while actually getting my nails done, so hopefully i didn't say something wrong but they ended the conversation after asking questions, saying they'd see me tomorrow at the in-person interview- so i don't think i said anything wrong. i have a feeling my mom reads my blog in order to see the things she could never do- while secretly wishing she would've actually TRIED to do more with her life at the same time as hoping i'll fail, so someone that came from basically the same place as she did is miserable like her. ANY CARING parent doesn't look at their own children as competition but my mom is narcissistic! she's not ANY parent!.. it's gotta be all about her. i've said this before and i'll say it again- my parents were too immature to be parents and that reflects on my brother and i (seeing as my sister has a different father). my brother was able to drift away from my mom's influence and drifted towards my grandparents- who basically saved him. i wasn't always dependant of my mom- for a while, i also depended on my grandparents for leadership but then i got in an accident and was FORCED to depend on my mom again, since she could physically transfer me.. until i got stronger and basically transferred myself (with a little help from jessiy when i'd go to my grandma's and had to take a bath). my mom has basically served as little-to-NO help to me if you try to even it out with the surgeries and pain she's caused me in my life (bowel surgeries and psychologically).